It has been an extremely long time since I have posted on my blog! Almost a year and so much has changed in such a short amount of time. As it seems to be an abundance that has changed, I find that many things still remain the same. There are so many things I want to blog about, share with you all, and explore as I enter into 2017. My hope and wish is to do all of these things on a consistent basis and invite you more into my world in all the ways that are possible. I am excited about experiences I have to share and I hope I can inspire and touch some of your lives in many ways!
Firstly, I must acknowledge where I have been and what I have been doing for almost the last year! So much has happened in so little time! My life has taken turns that I truly never anticipated! I am still in awe of the way life unfolds and navigates each of us on this tremendous journey. In the previous months I have divorced, fallen in love, moved, changed careers, became more of myself, let go of the past, and opened the door to a beautiful new future. In the midst of all of those life changing experiences, the mundane and routine of life has still moved on as well. I find it so interesting how we can go through incredible soul changing moments and yet still have to navigate through the motions of everyday life in the process of it all. We still must work through our day with one foot in front of another and function in all the proper ways we always do. We must continue on our path of life even in times when we are filled with great sorrow, disappointment, frustration, or elation, joy, and love. It seems sometimes we need the world to push pause so we may have our somber moment and put the covers over our head to weep. When we are happy we feel the world should smile with us! We feel that every person should be full of joy as we are and acknowledge their joy within as well. Yet, we are all so uniquely on our own path. I have learned so many amazing lessons in the past year and had my eyes opened to the harshness as well as the good of the world. Not only in people but in circumstances and the synchronicity of the universe.
There is a great abundance of things I would like to share. Along this years journey I will be blogging on things that have made a significant impact on my own life that either I knew and forgot along my way, or had not recognized in my own life until recently. One of the most powerful lessons that I have experienced is that when you finally let go of specific situations, the past, and people that no longer bring positivity to your life, the magic of doors that open in front of you is mind blowing. It is such a freeing and incredible experience to finally release negative patterns and things in ones life that no longer serve us well. We fight so hard sometimes to hold on to things that we perceive as good and joyous, or people and experiences that we are too fearful to release. The process of learning how and why we need to let go of these things is usually excruciatingly painful. This pain brings fear, sadness, guilt, emotional torture at times and great difficulty as our minds are overcome with constant thought and torment. The truth to all of this is that it is not easy for anyone. We all deal with hardships in our lives in so many different ways. When I went through realization that my marriage had to come to an end, it wasn’t just an end to a relationship. It was a loss of life as I knew it. It was a loss of life as I always thought it would be. It was my whole existence of who and what I thought I was, disintegrating right before my eyes. Although it was a slow and lengthy process, it was something that I could not understand and cope with. I was a prisoner of fear and was not comprehensive of how this all came to be. I wondered when and where I had turned down this lonely and difficult road. I questioned if I was to blame and where I had to accept responsibility for my choices and behaviors. I questioned everything that I ever was, am, or could be and I wondered why this had to happen to me. It was immense to take all of this in over time. I survived through a great abundance of prayer, meditation, writing, talking to those I could confide in, crying, searching for answers, coping in whatever capacity I could, and surrounding myself with people who loved me. But, with all this said I learned through every single one of the above mentioned, that in the end I would only be able to move forward when I finally allowed myself to let go and know everything would be okay. My mom would always tell me that we don’t fall off the face of the earth, somehow, some way, life does go on. If we so choose we can, and will, open any new doors that we desire to step through. Joyously, and at times reluctantly, in 2016 I stepped through new doors. Many of them, in fact. Often afraid or unsure and sometimes with jubilee and strength. To my surprise each time I did take this leap forward, I was for one okay, and for two actually relieved to be in a new space. Although each new change was scary and unknown it was all at once freeing and it began to reveal the layers of my new self. Strangely this was the self I always was, and yet the woman I had always wanted to be. The message in this is that whatever or whomever is holding you back or hindering your spirit, this it the year to let it go. Let it all go. Spread your wings, find your courage and take that new door to the beautiful things in your life that are waiting for you if you so choose. Although the path may be bumpy at times the funny thing is, that you finally start to see the big picture of the why and how you are on this new journey. Everything divinely makes sense. Each piece of your life starts to put itself back together and the outcome is beautiful when you accept and allow yourself to see and embrace the seasons of your soul. It’s not only beautiful but amazing!
A small glimpse into part of my 2016 but I am excited to share so many new things with you this year. I will be sharing more of my journey through the changes I have recently experienced along with beauty and hair inspiration, fashion, home and decor, and so much more. I wish for all of you the happiest of New Year and I truly hope for anyone who needs to make positive changes in your life that you will open those new doors that lead to joy and wonderful new things. Always remember to have compassion for not only yourself but those around you and all that is great and good will come your way. One of my most favorite sayings that has and continues to get me through challenging times, is the quote “All my ways are pleasant ways, and all my paths are peace”. This mantra is so strong and up lifting. As I say this to myself either within or out loud, I envision, imagine and feel that this is my truth. It is a great comfort to me and I hope sharing it with you all will bring some peace and joy to your lives. Here’s to an amazing 2017 and such an abundance of joy and hope for each one of us. Please feel free to leave a question or comment. I love hearing about your lives and I hope you can take a little inspiration from mine!