The end of a year always signifies a time to reflect on not only where you are at in life, but also where you have been. Some years or time periods are of not much significance and others are filled with major life changes, transitions, joys, or sorrows. It is this inconsistent consistency that creates the progress or set backs in our lives. At the beginning of 2015 I made a very important decision for myself to mindfully and specifically create a life for myself of joy and positivity. I truly consider myself a positive person as a whole, but there are always circumstances in all of our lives that challenge even the most joyful to figure out where they are and where they want to be. I had given away so much of my happiness over time, that I knew it was imperative to gift that back to myself. Being in the space I was in December of 2014 I felt tremendous pressure and an overwhelming feeling to make drastic changes within my life. This felt heavy and burdensome. I really was unsure where to even begin and how this could possibly be done. I also knew that the pressure of a new year and even making resolutions for this new year seemed at best, daunting. I recalled all the years that I was in a much better life space and even then these New Years resolutions were stressful and frustrating at times. I decided that I needed a new and different approach being that the last thing I desired during an already emotional time in my life, was more pressure to live up to these expectations of resolutions.
My New Year Philosophy
With knowing that I truly wanted to avoid the pressure of the “New Years Resolution” trap, I had to come up with a better solution for myself. I determined my new mind set had to be different and yet manageable for me to follow through on. It was at this point I had to change my perception of what this new year new me meant. I knew I needed to love myself more and that created my new philosophy from here forward. The beautiful quote by author George Eliot “It is never too late to be what you might have been” was a lovely reminder at this time in my life that I could be and change anything of my choosing. Thus my new direction with a new year was born. I determined that the one and only thing that I was to concentrate on in this new year and all the time after was to love myself. Good, bad or indifferent, I must embrace that in which I am , and love myself in all ways, always. Through the times when I am hard on myself for my physical insecurities, my lack of organization, trying to be a better mother, daughter, friend, or person. I often times was too busy to nurture myself. I determined to put all that away and thrive in absolute and complete joy. Regardless of my faults or feelings of not good enough, I truly wanted to exude, live, love, share and marinate in love and joy. I wished to release negative thoughts and habits on myself, find and live joyously and share that with the world.
Where this journey took me
Since this new found journey of loving and nurturing myself I have found it so interesting in how things have fallen into place for me. I changed my mind set, my thinking and my inner dialogue to myself. Telling myself that I loved myself and that it was okay to make mistakes but to stay strong. I’ve stayed consistent. My essential for this was not to get discouraged when I did not make as much progress as I would have hoped. Continuing to have strength and gratitude for the process, knowing that the next moment, hour, or day that I could do better. I wanted to take better care of my body and nourish my physical being. I wanted to take better care of my emotions and create and allow myself to be surrounded with circumstances and people who would add to my life and not take away. I wanted to take better care of my spirit and fill it up with any nurturing thing that I needed, prayer, meditation, exercise, reading, and joy filled activities. I changed the energy within myself and around myself and my world shifted. It became what I was feeling and living, joy.
Seeing now that it has been a year I quite honestly cannot believe where I am now, compared to where I was. It truly feels as if I am a completely different person and yet the person that I always have been all in one. It has been a metamorphosis and a true gift of learning, love and living authentically to who I am to my core. This year has brought so many new amazing things into my life but also removed so many negative things and much needed healing. Each one of us have things in our lives that we can improve upon. The message for this new year is to know that within the realm of loving yourself, truly embracing all the good and bad of who you are when you shift your thoughts, behaviors and energy into pure love for yourself your world then begins to change. You are worth it, life is worth it, the joy and love is all worth it.
I am so grateful for this past year and look forward to continuing to love myself. I know there is so much more to learn, to accomplish, to share, to love. There is an abundance of joy and new exciting experiences, people and journey’s that I have to look forward to. I will keep on keeping on and love within stronger, and more determined than ever. Embrace your journey, embrace yourself and I wish you all a beautiful, loving, joyful 2016! Happy New Year!